I can kind of see a light at the end, but to which direction I will be traveling down, I don't know. I don't like not knowing, I do not like making decision of these magnitudes, I do not like the road I am on right now.
What am I going to do? I don't know but the scripture comes to mind, "From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows fait; lead me to the rock that is higher than I" (Ps 61:2) The rock that is higher: Jesus. I am just going to get my PRAISE on. I believe He will work these things out. I might not have the answers to my situation, but He is the answer for all things. I will PRAISE Him. "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God" (2Cor 1:3-4) If you are in a similar state, you are not alone. Press into God through Praise and wait on the Lord; He will strengthen your heart (and mine). It's going to be okay.