Today as I was driving to the library, my daughter was so excited to check out a book on your passion: horses. I was just listening to her as her excitement spilled over to me and she said, "mom, you can check out a book on being a better mother...." I was stunned inside, "she thinks I need to be a better mother, dude." So I did what a "good" mother should do and asked, "why, do you think I need that?" "Oh, came the reply, "because you get stressed sometimes." Wow!!! I was faced to face with my fears: not measuring up as a mother that I so desire to be. I honestly, didn't think she was trying to be ugly or sassy, she was excited to know their were books on helping people in areas they need work on. The hard part for me to swallow was that she doesn't see me as a "perfect" mom.
I think that is way sometimes I don't want to talk about motherhood because I am not a "perfect" mom. Sometimes I think that maybe just maybe God picked the wrong person for the job. Yet, here I am with 3 sweet kids that I adore, but feeling so inadequate of the responsibility before God.
If you at all feel the same way, take courage, God is faithful to complete the work in and through us. I have many many areas left to be perfected, but praise God, we are not left alone.
Maybe I should read more books on self helps for mommies, it couldn't hurt, but the One source that I need to draw more from is the Holy Spirit. He is the one that bursts us forth with the Fruits that truly our kiddos need to see emulated in our lives.
Ask the Holy Spirit today to strengthen, encourage and equip you more for the field of motherhood. Who knows maybe my girl will see a change in me that I desperately desire.