Could their be a T-Rex inside of you?
I am sure that you don't have any idea what I am talking about, but unfortunately I do.
I was on vacation. My family were in close quarters for a number of days (A number of wonderful, fun packed days), but close all the same. I couldn't just send my children out in the back yard, or set them in opposite rooms; we all had to share the space together. It wasn't the square foot of the room, nor was it the living situation, it was all that we all were together all the time. LOL Well,
my children run on the amped side of life, esp my son, who I usually catch him upside down or swinging from the trees, so for him, he was feeling the confinement. So much so that out of no where, he lead the family in a crazy explosion of testosterone that left everyone crying, screaming, wounded and upset. Our hotel room became a place of triage.
My heart was pounding at this tirade, this destructive behavior and this chaos that was happening on my vacation. So I did what any mother would do: I started reprimanding everyone even my husband. (no he didn't go to time out but he gave me one lol)
My husband looked at me with such a look of fright and then I saw it: I had transformed into a T-Rex. I actually saw a vision of it. Really I did.
Is that what I really look like to my kids? That's down right scary.
Instead of dressing wounds and consoling the tearful ones, I was showing my frustration of it all by chiding the children. Badly done. Badly done.
They needed to be held, needed to be kissed and given ice packs on wounds.
Mom's we have to be so careful at the T-Rex syndrome. We can try to justify it and make excuses for it, but really, it's just as destructive as the infraction that occurred.
When I saw a vision of me looking like a T-Rex, I cried inside. Later I laughed, and then cried again. I laughed with a friend, but then I cried again.
"Take my yoke upon you and Learn of Me
I Am GENTLE and HUMBLE in Heart.
You will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:29
Get that: GENTLE and HUMBLE.
Mom's we get tired oh so tired. Tired of the yelling, the complaining, the murmuring, the this's the that's, RIGHT? It's at these tender times that we need to pull away and rejuvenate and refresh ourselves. You must take the time you need to get plenty of Rest and Health to your bodies, souls and minds. If you find yourself really struggling, Pray to God to cleanse you and fill you with His Spirit. You also might need to check on your diet, your sleeping patterns, and your over all health.
I was on vacation but I wasn't resting. I was cooking, cleaning, still entertaining the family,when I should have been a little more still, a little more rested,a little more understanding.
My husband became the victor that day. He took me aside and calmed me down. He helped me return to loving mommy again. I went out and held my children, loved and them and apologized for getting frustrated when all they needed was TLC.
Live a life in such away that you don't need to apologize for your behavior.
You'll never regret this one.