I know it did for me. My little one clinging to me so hard, that she made it really difficult for me to leave, well, move, for that matter. Soon my other children where holding me and telling me not to leave. Oh boy, does that make it ever so hard on the heart.
The reality is: I need to go. It was a good time for me to go, and I went.
(I was only gone 2 hours and I was just around the corner, but it was very hard to leave)
Sometimes as moms we can fall into the "I don't need my time" syndrome. I am so guilty of this. But I am learning to change all that.
I find that just a few hours out to do things for myself like hair, nails, shop, sit quietly, go to church service or meet up with friends and family, is so good for my mental being. I feel invigorated.
I am not talking days or weeks away, I am just talking an hour or few just for yourself.
I tried being gone long recently but it was a bit too unnerving for the family.
It was 8.5 years since I left for the night. The time before that was when I went to a women's retreat and brought my 6 month old. So for me to leave for a long stretch is harder for me. Although I had a great time, it was hard being away over night and it's too hard on the little one right as well.
Every family dynamic is different, just be sensitive to their needs and find something manageable.
The whole point is, sometimes, thought it's hard, we as mommies need to get a breather.
My heart is so torn when I leave that little one, but I know she is learning that mommy is gonna come back and love on her just the same.
Lately, she's been saying, "I'm not crying when you leave." That's progress.
As a mom the last thing you need is more to do's, yet I feel this is something we all need to
keep achieve in it's proper function and balance.
Set an agreeable time where you can go and get refreshed.
For me, it helps. I hope you can try it.
No it won't be easy, but work with your families dynamics and
find a time for you.
Momma you need it.
"A better you a better them" I say.